Where I sit now, I come to realize that I must move on for the greater good. Not for you but for myself.
I had my own computer but I went to college in another town so I hardly used it. So I had nothing but crap back then – writing articles on ink and paper and encoding them to any computer that I can hold on to. I have to go to internet cafes to be able to put my articles online. There were instances when I stayed at my friends’ apartment just to use their computer.
There was this rental place where I took my computer with me. I subscribed for an internet connection but I ended up staying at my uncle’s place and then at my mother’s. Things just turned upside down but I was lucky because I still get to use a computer and go online from time to time.
I went back to my hometown and luck was still behind me. I was reunited with my very own computer. We had no internet connection at home yet so I was back where I started. I still write on paper but usually, I use my computer. I then do the publishing at our computer lab or at a nearby internet cafe.
We then got internet connection at home but it was a really, really bad idea to use a prepaid card. The connection was so slow and worst, my computer turned into crap. We had it repaired (which I figured out later on that I can actually fix it) and decided to get a better internet connection.
Everything was really falling into place. I was doing good at school while blogging on the side. I’ve found my way to fame and got myself into an apprenticeship training program managed by a highly-respected tech geek.
After I got my Bachelor’s degree, a lot of different things were going on. It was almost a year when I decided to move out and became completely independent. I’ve saved some money but I must find a job. Freelancing was still on my mind so I took the risk.
I was unemployed on my first few months of independence and it’s been almost 3 years that I’ve been working as a virtual assistant. I jumped from one client to another and got irregular paychecks. This may be a bad decision but it felt so liberating. I have lots of time for myself , do the things I love and really learning a lot.
What I’m very proud of is how I’m able to manage living on my own with very little financial assistance. For almost a year, I’ve been providing educational support to my brother and it’s been 4 months that I’m working for a much stable company and getting a regular paycheck.
I still may not have enough money or a more comfortable place to live in. I may have very few good friends but I’m happy despite the solitude.
My worst failure ever?
8 months since the last post, mostly are from the internet archive’s wayback machine with half put in drafts and just a few fresh updates. Most of time I blabbed about my epic failures, even sent a warning but until now, I’m running in circles.
What exactly went wrong?
The problem is not with the changes but me, myself and I.
I’m not consistent and I don’t mean what I say. I’ve drawn plans but all for nothing. I just gave up on something that’s very valuable to me, my blog that introduced me to freelancing.
So yeah, I should not just give up on this venture. I should move on and make myself proud.
What I’ll be working on from now will be a series of self-realizations and what’s been happening around. I’ve drawn a plan and set a schedule but I might need some help, something for my improvement and to remind me to keep moving on.
Word count at this point is 670.
Good job Pweng, you deserve an ice cold bottle of beer. 
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